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6 weeks since i made a post on here so what the hell.
Sean, first off i wanna say ur college decision is pretty smart, but u really gotta work at those 2 or 3 classes. i only have 4 classes, and granted they are a minimum 3 hours long but i gotta tell you the workload makes up for the other classes that im not taking.

I have been thinking a lot. About eveything. Stressing out, having fun, seeing family, friends, school, painting, the future, music, etc... and usually at some point in a semester i get really really stressed out and all the thoughts in my head jumble into one big ball of shit. In turn i wanna just fuckin yell/cry or something.

One thing that i've thought about a lot is smoking. yea everyone knows i smoke a lot. its great i love it and whatever, but i think its come to the point where its e/affecting my study time/free time/ and even my work to some degree. i think its time for me to stop smoking. I know this may be a lost cause but I'm pretty set on making a date for myself to stop it all and just go clean. (well, drink, of course) I really have no idea if i will go through this yet but at this very moment that im writing this im so stressed and lost and i feel like quitting smoking would put me a step in the right direction. I'm starting to feel less productive when i smoke. In the past i usualy smoke and get the same amount of work done that i usually do, now im kinda useless, lol....but not funny.

Baltimore is really depressing right now. I think my goal is to get out of this city when i graduate, get to NYC, and if not NYC i wont want any other city. Ultimately i wanna head to the mountains out west or maybe stay east caost and go up to vermont.

also ive been debating the whole 'fate' thing in my head. i dont like the idea that my life is pre determined, plus i like thinking/knowing that i have 100% control over what i do. At the same time so many wierd occurences happen in life that make me think "what the fuck!?!?" i dunno. just really confused right now i think i need some clarity to my situations. ill post more this weekend or next week, laterrrrrrrsssss, peace.

wow ive noticed that no one has been making any posts so yet again iw as like, damn, ill make one. I guess it's expected since we are all back in school now. Man the years have really flown by. I was a fuckin freshman in college yesterday wtf happened. I think the downfall is you can't use anymore of the bullshit freshman excuses when it comes to doing/not doin any hw. lol , not that i have had to use any yet. I feel like i can really do well this semester but itll be a tough one.

you know the funny thing is that time at school is goin by so fast but it makes me think if it's gonna slow down when i graduate or speed up? I don't think I can live the slow life really, I think I'll always want to be doing sumthin outrageous and energy consuming, i guess. I dunno, i have a whole mix of thoughts right now that all goes somehwere in between of, "what am i doin at college" and "hey, check me out, im at college". i just really want to live for the moment and in the moment and not worry about the future so much, which i find myself doin more and more. then there is that whole argument, as i like to call "The Dazed and Confused" argument, which is what are we doing all this for? what are we prepairing for? death? if so shouldn't life be the party?

eh i won't look into this too deep, ust my philosophy class is really makin me think a lot so i gotta write this shit somewhere. On another note im readin more books which is something i regret not doin back in the high school years. books are great, read as many as u can before you die.

ooh well kids, time for class. respond to this i wanna hear what some people have to say. peaceeeee

yay for some people (aka sean and alec) making some postages on the LJ. woop ba ba doo wop. i dont really have much to say about anything. so far being home has been a good time. it kinda feels like right where i left off. missed a few good parties, but ive been seein a lot of cool new people lately at other partiese ive been goin to.

happy b-day to alec, that mutha fucka is 21, show some ressssspectt beotches and bitches.

yo so i gotta get shit goin with my apt. down in B-more. its a sweet place and i have a nice sized room. come down and party.

i actualy can't wait to go back to school and get some shit started. its really weird, i really told myself that i would paint and draw a lot this summer and i really havent done shit. bad artist...ii dunno what it is. i just cant do good work over summer. im way more into photography during this time of the year or graffiti. w/e i gotta start drawin shyit again.

other than that...i dont even know. fuck it man, just faaaack it.

peace out bros and ho s

wuttup wuttup i have like 15 minutes before class to make a post so here goes. btw sean my minutes ran out on my ´euro´ phone and then my battery died on my phone so sry bout that. slovenia is great i love it here. its been blazingly hot here for the past week i dunno wut in farhenheit anymore but its like 38 degrees celsius. they serve beer here half a liter at a time and for lil ole matej 3 beers gets me pretty tipsy and beer #4 will do me over. the ladies here are gorgeous. everyone in general is really fit . people are always riding bikes and hking and walking and all that good stuff.
prolly the best thing is the food and the city. i ride my bike about 30 minutes every mornin to get to school, i have class for 3 hours and then me and a bunch of other students usually go out for a beer afterwards. there are like 4 other americans here and prolly about 5 canadiens so its a good to be able to here some ˝˝normal˝ english. uhhh my language teacher is also really hott lol. my bro comes today too! good news because im about done buying people rounds. hopefully he wont be annoying and shit. aight time for class ill write more later if anyone replies to this post woop dee doo. bee boop peace out all yall mother fuckers and drink a beer or 4 for me at seans Fest-E-val next weekend. peace ...again. wait i have to end on peace. peace.

yo america sux im movin to europe asap.

im at class right now so ill update more on whats goin on with me and Slovenia a bit later. uhh i actualy dont have much internet access and they arent down with the wireless here either..so rough times..hope everyone is doin alright and uhhh dont call me on my cell phone unless u wanna pay a fuckload of money. ill give u a european cell # to reach me at. later all. peace.

summer has been fun. plenty of hangin out at my house, plenty of hangin out period. plenty of sun and rain, plenty of sleep, or lack of. most importantly plent of jammin.

so the first week of fun was great, the rents are home till tuesday now, so gotta take a break from late-nightness at my house. we can all still chill and swim and jam though

so i got pulled over today. herse the BS story that actualy really boring and nothing compared to the shit u guys have all delt with but hey its my story and i fuckin hate cops so ill tell it.

so im drivin down 33 and it's like 8:00 am and im taking the parents car to get fixed at the dealership. im goin like 75 ish, and i see this cop already drivin in front of me , gettin off this exit. everyone is still drivin like 75 though, cause hell, its 33. so im in the left lane and possibly my mistake that i made is passing the cop at 75. now for whatver reason, he doesnt come up behind me or anything, so i keep going along merrily. slowly i notice the cop is farther back behind me, and it seems like hes just gonna chill and leave me alone. ALL of a sudden that mother fucker just speeds up and pulls me over. I mean he came up fast behind me. W/e i say because its not like he had a radar gun clocked on me. I pull over..

immediatly this asshole just starts yellin at me, like straight up in my face asking me why im driving 80. I said i wasn't driving 80 that i was probably doin 75 like everyone else. then he says "why are you blowing smoke like that, don't lie to me, you were doin 80!" im talking to him real calm, so i said" hey man, calm down" (dont tell a cop to calm down, word of advice) and he gets even more pissed off and all like "dont tell me to calm down!" and then goes into some guilt trip spiel askin me what my parents would think if their insurance goes up and what not. i said yea that would suck, and then i decide to just shut up. and he's standin there lookin at my license and regist. just kinda staring at me, noticing (i think) that if he doesnt stop yellin I aint gonna say shit to him.

So what does this guy do? ...nothing. he gets back in his jeep cruiser or w/e, puts on his speaker and tells me to go. so just a verbal warning. but man did that make me think "wow, cops are the biggest assholes on earth" personally i felt bad for him for having obvious anger management problems, plus he probably goes home every night feeling like the biggest asshole on earth.

iin the end i still have to thank him though. id rather get yelled at and shit and just get a warning then have a real nice cop give me a ticket for 160 $. Officer Fuckface, one last thing to say to you. "youre a fuckin bitch''

peace

i feel like i havent made a post in awhile so i figured it was time.

the summer is here and ive been out of school for what, like 23 days so far, so yea its flyin' by. in 6 days time my parents will be gone too. i hope this open house thing doesnt get out of hand cause as usual with things around b-ville and shit word gets around about things like that. keep it on the hush hush pls. yes there will be lots of chillen.

my basement at this moment is a total jam session area, got the fuckin drums in the middle, my new bass, JT's guitar, and Dillon's PA system. June is gonna rock.

I never made a post about the show! The arctic monkeys were incredible. i had only listened to them for about a week prior to that show and let me tell ya, awesome awesome, orgasmic fantastic. I really wanted to go to that Deer Hunter show last night but i can't be drivin down to philly every fuckin week, especially since i will be goin to Baltimore tomorrow. should be fun.

on a more personal note, although parties and random chicks are fun id love to settle down some. gots to find mahself a girl. if not oh well.

there are still many things to be done this summer and such little time. this includes: hiking a lot, camping out, goin to the beach, boating down the deleware, goin up to Canada possibly, and shit loads of relaxing, partying, and camp fires. i cant wait.

peace bitchessssss

holy fuckin shit i just pulled a crazy all-nighter and i gotta tell ya, i totally disagree with with all those goody-fuckin perfectionist kids that are all about doin work early and gettin it done. Pulling all nighters has allowed me to go out and party all semester and play lots of guitar and video games and still get my work done. All nighters totally focus me, i get sucked into them somehow. It smacks ya in the face the next morning but hell i just took 2 shots of whiskey to wake me up for class (seriously i did).

so moral of the story is do what you want to do all semester, get some work done, but let the true spirit of the almighty all nighter engulf your inner being and suck the life from your brain and nervous system.

with that said its 9:00 mutha fuckin AM and i have already gone to class and now i need to sleep. peace out bitches, peace out.

so for those who havent heard i have some pretty sweet news. during June i will have the house to mah-self, yup all of June. this should be sweet but dont go around telling the fucking world. i realize me writing this contradicts that but i assume only like 5 or 6 people read eachothers LJ entries anyway.

besides that I'm goin nuts just being down in B-more and being in my room workin my ass off but thats how finals go every year i should just learn to deal with it instead of whining like a lil bitch. i really cant wait to go home and be home though, i went home on saturday to take a good amount of junk out of my dorm room, and man it was just warm and shit i wanted to go swimmin, pool wont be open till like May 20 or sumthin.

me and willy saw that movie Hot Fuzz it starts out kindaa...like eh w/e, but towards the middle and end it gets funny/ pretty badass. sometimes i still dont get British humor though haha.

anyways, i should really be doing work. 2 more critiques, 1 final test, and 1 paper have yet to be written! BAM

everyone good luck on finals and shit and I shall see you all this summmmeerrrrrrrr woot woot>><<>>PEACE